After The Storm

As I sat in this corner of the airport, I felt oblivious to the environment around me. This is a luxury that hardly comes to me and "after the storm" was playing on my iPod. Sometimes I wish I could be stuck in a dimension like this where awareness or self consciousness doesn't  come at all. A place where I don't judge or get judged by others around me. Why have we fallen to a pit where we measure each other by the standard of the world around us. It makes me wonder about what is happiness in life. Is it the guy in front of me who is happy being with a Thai girl that is willing to be with him for the money? Is it that lady who are happily shopping away in the branded retail store? Is it that guy in suit that looks so satisfied with himself that I presume comes from his success in life? 

Do I really want to be in this Reality?

As I sucked out my last mouthful of wild Cherry blended, I found my answer to this question. I want to live in this reality. There is no way of escaping it but I can change the way I live in the reality. I could throw away the ways that I was taught to "survive" in this world. 

My God, this is my prayer

Take away self consciousness from my life

Take away judgmental attitude from me

Shield me and guard my mouth and mind from sin

Give me the wisdom to say things that build others and not say things that bring others down

True joy to be found at all time and satisfaction that are derived from the right thing. 

Amen.

This is the whole point of traveling, it gives me time to think and reflect my life. I went on a singapore trip this time. 

P.s : if you find that this post confusing, it's because I was writing as I sat down thinking so my thoughts flow in such a way. It's changi airport btw.