I feel like a zombie that is geared to revise and do past year questions every single day. I practically slap myself every single day to know that I am still alive in this world that seems to be moving so fast for me.
Faith and principle is shaken at this moment of my life when nothing else seems to matter more than the result of this examination. The burden of my expectation in studies seems to be pushing me lower and lower down the ground. I start to wonder whether is this all still worth it and will it all turn into dust in the end.
After all,I am only human and I break down too. Everyone seems to think I will do fine in the end of the day. Before we get there,I am clearly intimidated by the fear of not being able to enter university.
I know it seems like a small matter in some people's mind. Afterall, people could do external program degree or just go to some college and twin to another uni. It all comes down to having the money. I sometimes wish I was that complacent and put myself in that category.
It is pretty pointless to continue ranting like this without doing anything about it.
Honestly,Happiness feels a lot like sorrow and the amount of effort we put into getting happiness at the end of the day. It almost feels like Happiness is never mine to hold.
1 Whispers:
you feel the way you do because you know you don't want to give up without a fight. you're getting there. it'll all be worth the pain.
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