The Sound of Silence

How long has it been?

This feeling of writing a blog post seems to be so alien now to me,yet every word that I am typing brings back a unique feeling that I have not felt over the months. A quick look at the archives shows that my last blog post was in April.

Then I realised it was that long ago,5 months of my life has passed since the last blog post and I could not even write out a single blog post.

Now I understand this unique feeling,it is a feeling of coming back home.

Just to recount the various happenings that has happened over the months:

• Semester exam has passed and I somehow got a certificate of Merit for getting all Bs
• Even Mock Exam is over and my result is out
• I had a bad luck spree prior and after my birthday
• Celebrated my 18th birthday with 4 groups of people
• Went for debates and somehow got the Best Speaker and Runner Up
• Found someone that i want to be with during the trip for debate
• Grew spiritually in God's family
• I lost one of my best friend

Looking back at those highlights for the past 5 months,I could not decide whether I have lived my life according to my way.

Then how did I got to such a low point in my life? That even being such an egocentric person could not help to make me feel better about myself. The insults,sabotages,failures and etc has somehow turn into water that slowly weaken this pillar of mine. As the days passed, its slowly erodes the surface all the way to the core of it. I have always thought that I was numb to all these elements that tries to weaken me in life. Little did I know that they actually hit me slowly like waves of water eroding a pillar at the side of the beach.

Knowing that,I have finally come to sense that I need to stop this erosion of my life. I no longer desire to be inflated by ego merely but I want the substance to be there as well.

Writing in this blog again makes me come back home once again,come back to who I really am in the inside so that I no longer live solely on my outer ego.

This marks the new start of my life with my inner soul intact once again and the end of my life with my outer ego solely.

I can't wait to embark on this journey once again after I came to this junction of my life. This is gonna be yet another road/chapter of life.

-David-