The Fear You Won't Fall

What has the world today changed us into?

I refuse to believe that I would question myself about this but I think I had enough of my own mixed emotions lately.Secondary school life is over and I no longer have to put up with whatever shit that I had last time.

We are having such a short life and yet people are trying to attack each other everyday. Tactics and scam become the way of life in the world today as if those who don't follow suit becomes the weakest link. I can't stand those fakers in my life and I can't stand those who act like my friend.

I have nothing to offer afterall and I don't need anything to return. I know so many people who had their tiny hope crushed just because of others selfishness. Just because others don't get what they want,does it really make you feel better? Ask your true emotion and tell me the answer.

Envy will get us nowhere and it won't be long before you become a public enemy yourself. Bragging about what you got won't make people respect you more but it will only lead you to your own doom. What happened to humbleness in life? Just because you are born rich does not mean you will die being rich.

We got to start waking up and not walk in the shoes that other prepared for us. This life is a long journey that we are supposed to take each step by ourselves. There is no one there to take us to the final destination.

There is no need for me to act like I am alright when i am not,there is no need to hold back the tears when i feel like crying and there is no need to hide when i am ashamed.

The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn't work, don't buy it

I am moving on from this point and I no longer want to adhere to the surrounding I am in. I want to be myself and I am killing my outer ego.

Delicate

I know it is predictable but I am still gonna say that SPM is finally over.

I know you might have read this sentence over and over again in all those blog of people who are seventeen this year. Of course I am not gonna be typical and celebrate the ending of secondary education,instead I am just happy this phase of my life is over.Its funny,isn't it? How could we expect something such as learning to ever end? SPM is just a phase in our life and now we can finally move to the next phase in our life.There is no need to ask how is it like after SPM? SPM is just an exam and we are making it sound like its a big disaster/apocalypse that we need to ask people how they feel after it.

So,How do I feel after SPM?

My answer would be " I feel relieved and ready to take the next step"

I no longer want to talk about it or discuss much about it because I know i did my best for it. I promised myself to do well and I pushed myself until the last day of it. The results is gonna be evidence of my hard work and I am not gonna whine about it. Its getting pathetic that you keep whining about how you did in SPM if we all know that you did well or the other way around. The point is nobody cares about how you did,we are too busy being concerned with our own.

I registered for college and its INTI for me. I don't care about what people have to comment about it because I am the one studying in it. Just let me be the judge whether its good or not. The lecturer for law seems like a good person to me,someone who I can ask her more about being a lawyer in UK since she been one for many years there.Let this whole college issue to be over because i only want to get good college education without my parents having to pay a lot for it.

5 years of secondary education has been a wholesome package full of knowledge for me and it didn't only made me better academically but as a whole person as well. I have walked pass this stepping stone to my future and ready for more. I pledge to stick to my dream and bring justice to the court one day.